Love is always patient and kind

Quoted from the Holy bible 1 Corinthians 13: 4-8

Love is always patient and kind; love is never jealous; love is not boastful or conceited, it is never rude and never seeks its own advantage, it does not take offence or store up grievances.

Love does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but finds its joy in the truth. It is always ready to make allowances, to trust, to hope and to endure whatever comes.

Love never comes to an end. But if there are prophecies, they will be done away with; if tongues, they will fall silent; and if knowledge, it will be done away with.

I was reminded again on the nature of love in the church today.

I used to think I am a fair person when it is dealing with reserving seat during the mass. I personally tried not to reserve the seat in the church for mass. My past argument is that it was not fair for those who came earlier yet they could not find a seat for themselves caused you were hogging the seat.

Today, I had to reserve a seat for my dearest sister who could not come earlier to the church on time due to her class. I was upset and not feeling comfortable of hogging the seat beside me, especially after the church warden asked me if the seat were available. I was about to let go the seat, yet I restrained myself for doing that.

My sister came to the seat at about 20 mins after the mass started. I kept silent and tried to calm down my mixed feeling. It was at that time I realized that I was too selfish. It was not about whether it was fair to hog the seat or whether her action caused distraction to my communion with God. Probably, I was just too afraid of being portrayed as unfair or selfish by reserving the seat. In fact, my sister reserved a seat for me few weeks ago and she always welcome me with a smile.

I sincerely thanks God for giving me such a patient and cheerful individual as my sibling.

A Morning Prayer

Few days ago, I prayed during my trip to office.

"Lord Jesus, Teach me and guide me to be more like You.

To be firm yet caring...

To be just yet loving...

AMIN"

Lazy Saturday

I skipped my dragon boat training today. At first, I thought it would be good for me that I would have extra free time in the morning. In fact, NOT ENOUGH TIME had been something that I have been continuously complaining in the past few months.

However after waking up at 11AM this morning, I found the guilt of not being committed to the schedule and it almost drained my whole spirit away. I could really feel how disappointed my soul was at that point of time. It might sound too exaggerated to say that my energy was low due to the skipping action but that was what I felt at that moment.

Here are two possible reasons that, in my humble opinion, have caused such reaction:

1. I feel uncomfortable because of skipping my regular activities
I have been noticing this phenomena on myself. Although I used to say that I like to venture into new challenges, I can not lie to myself. I love regularity. The equation goes like this:

Regularity = comfortableness

In engineering term, Regularity has direct relationship to comfortableness, i.e. the more regular something is the more comfortable we are I am.

2. I feel bad about myself of neglecting my commitment
Despite the not-so-punctual attitude, I always try to fulfill my commitment as much as I can. For me, commitment is something absolute and definitely a must-to-deliver item. This may be the reason why I tend to reduce my involvement in many occasion. I prefer not taking part to not being able to produce good deliverable.


Personally, I hope the second reason was the caused of this morning feeling... and I would like to share this lesson:

1. skipping your activities would not always give you extra time and it seems to me, based on this experience, the problem is not on the limited time available but on my ability to commit myself to whatever I have planned to accomplish

2. Completing one target will boost your energy for the next target.