Thursday, March 27, 2008

Unknown Sacrifice

I had been reading the following story several times yet it has never failed to draw me into feeling the sorrow resulting from such a shameful act by the “son” character in the story. I believe it is also applied to many people, especially me. It might be insignificant sacrifices by our parent or someone around us and yet we consider it as unworthy or even shame to acknowledge the person as someone close to us.

A note for my family: I love you all!!! I am so sorry if I’d missed to acknowledge your help and care.

To friends: Thank you for all your helps and cares. I am a weak human that is arrogant and naïve. I ask you for another help, which is to remind me of my weaknesses.


My mom only had one eye. I hated her... She was such an embarrassment.
She cooked for students & teachers to support the family.

There was this one day during elementary school where my mom came to
Say hello to me.

I was so embarrassed.

How could she do this to me?
I ignored her, threw her a hateful look and ran out.
The next day at school one of my classmates said, 'EEEE, your mom only
Has one eye!'

I wanted to bury myself.
I also wanted my mom to just disappear.
I confronted her that day and said, ' If you're only goanna make me a
Laughing stock, why don't you just die?'

My mom did not respond...
I didn't even stop to think for a second about what I had said, because
I was full of anger.
I was oblivious to her feelings.

I wanted out of that house, and have nothing to do with her.
So I studied real hard , got a chance to go abroad to study.
Then, I got married.
I bought a house of my own.
I had kids of my own.
I was happy with my life, my kids and the comforts, Then one day, my
Mother came to visit me.
She hadn't seen me in years and she didn't even meet her
Grandchildren.

When she stood by the door, my children laughed at her, and I yelled at
Her for coming over uninvited.
I screamed at her, 'How dare you come to my house and scare my
Children!'
GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!'

And to this, my mother quietly answered, 'Oh, I'm so sorry. I may have
Gotten the wrong address,'
And she disappeared out of sight.
One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house.

So I lied to my wife that I was going on a business trip.
After the reunion, I went to the old shack just out of curiosity.

My neighbors said that she died.
I did not shed a single tear.
They handed me a letter that she had wanted me to have.


'My dearest son,
I think of you all the time. I'm sorry that I came to your house and
Scared your children.
I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.
But I may not be able to even get out of bed to see you.
I'm sorry that I was a constant embarrassment to you when you were
Growing up.

You see........when you were very little, you got into an accident, and
Lost your eye.
As a mother, I couldn't stand watching you
Having to grow up with one eye.
So I gave you mine.
I was so proud of my son who was seeing a whole new world for me, in my
Place, with that eye.

With all my love to you,
Your mother.

Friday, March 21, 2008

Tickle.com

Some tests that I have taken from Tickle.com (mostly during last semester Exam)...

The Brainteaser Test
Result: 29/30

Are You a Natural Leader?
Result: Ahead of the Pack

What's Your Destiny?
Result: Manager

The Enneagram Test
Result: Type 7 - The Adventurer

Your Subconscious Self
Result: Work Life

The Brain Test
Result: Left-brained

The Super IQ Test
Result: Creative Theorist

What Shapes Your Personality?
Result: Organized

The Classic IQ Test
Result: Visionary Philosopher

and... the list goes on...

Sunday, March 9, 2008

Life is precious

Life is a challenge, accept it.
Life is a battle, fight it.
Life is a tear, face it.
Life is a journey, complete it.
Life is a game, play it.
Life is precious, treasure it.

What a nice reflection of life they were. It was taken from one of my friends’ blog. However if you asked me to choose one, it will be “Life is precious“ and I will treasure it to the fullest.

This thought came to me yesterday night. It is when I was walking alone at midnight, accompanied with the gentle breeze and silence of green grass, to the most outstanding building in NTU. Yeah... it’s ADM building! It has been a while for me to walk at night. Anyway, I went to my cousin’s birthday celebration.

Those experience remind me to my previous experience when I first came to NTU. My friends and I used to spend time together for late supper in Jurong West. A life full of fun and freedom! I think I missed those fun moments in my life. University life is going to over soon and I hope to make the best out of the time left by enjoying my days in NTU more and more!

Ps. ADM pond is a nice “ romantic” place to hang out with your gf/bf at night. Recommended for the new couple in BLAZERs. Congratulation for both of you!

Saturday, March 8, 2008

Law of Attraction

This list of four steps, couched in quasi-scientific terms, is quite similar to, and was influenced by, the panentheistic "Seven Steps in Demonstration" first outlined in the famous non-denominational New Thought book Become What You Believe by Mildred Mann (1904 - 1971):

Desire. Get a strong enthusiasm for that which you want in your life, a real longing for something which is not there now.

Decision. Know definitely what it is that you want, what it is that you want to do or have, and be willing to pay in spiritual values.

Ask. [When sure and enthusiastic] ask for it in simple, concise language. . .

Believe. Believe in the accomplishment with strong faith, consciously and subconsciously.

Work. Work at it. . . a few minutes daily, seeing yourself in the finished picture. Never outline details, but rather see yourself enjoying the particular thing . . . Eventually, you will see a time where it will just appear, as a gift or such, or you may see an opportunity to get what you were asking for.

Feel gratitude. Always remember to say, "Thank you, God [or the universe]," and begin to feel the gratitude in your heart. The most powerful prayer we can ever make is those three words, provided we really feel it. Feel as though you already have what you wanted.

Feel expectancy. Train yourself to live in a state of happy expectancy... Find a way it will appear in your life, and keep believing in that. May it be that someone gives it to you, or you find an initiation to get it.


... quoted from wikipedia

Thursday, March 6, 2008

Heart vs Brain

Wew... just finished a quiz on Mental Health module (HP803)... What a fulfilling day it was... and it is blogging time.

Let me start with some secrets shared by my FYP Professor, an inspiring man with wonderful life.

It was a day after LISC 2008 (read: honeymoon with God). I was in the lab with another master student when suddenly my professor approached both of us and offered a celebration lunch for successful submission of our papers (one on EEG device and the other one about new rehabilitation proposal). Nah... It is not about the free food!!! It’s about his sharing... it’s about his way of thinking that he shared during the 4 hour chat. What a great time it was!

Curious enough??? Unfortunately I can’t disclose all the tips here... but let me share some of them:

1. Count your blessings
2. Follow your heart and not your brain
3. Acknowledge others and praise them for their talent or positive character
4. Focus on your success, your dream and go after it
5. Don’t let the negative energy from other to infect you
6. Don’t complain!
7. One can do and so can you
8. Etc (you can read the secret of millionaire mind for more)

He also asked three questions to me:
1. Why did Adam and Eve fall into sin?
2. Why there is pain and suffering?
3. What is the meaning of life?

I have tried following my heart for the previous two days and it has been wonderful. One example is when I went to the convention by URECA Mensa. It was a struggle for me to go for the convention as it was raining that day and I had a lot of deadlines. Despite all that I went there and I found an opportunity to improve my brain memory... what a blessing luck it was!

There is always a time for everything! Just follow your heart!